Had some time and needed to write this down. Want to know more about me and get in my head? Then hit read more. Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about who I am. I wrote this list down to remind myself since sometimes it gets lost under a lot of feelings and crap. They’re in no particular order, just whatever popped into my head. I have two first names. All my life I’ve gone by my second name,...
Maybe I've Got it Backwards
As a result of yesterday’s therapy session, I need to become a social butterfly. Not like to an extreme amount but to the point where I ask other people out to do things and develop friendships, which I have a hard time doing by myself. But maybe… I always thought I needed a best friend but in reality, I think I already have many. The difference is that I don’t put enough...
I would never wish this in anyone.
It’s finally come to a point where I need to suck it up and admit that whatever I’m doing, isn’t helping what it needs to be helping. I’m tired of hurting the ones I love. It’s hard for me to admit to needing help because I want to be proud by beating it myself but I need to do this to save what I have now. I’m not ashamed to needing help since I’ve...
I need to find something I can do to enjoy time by myself and no one else. Here’s my plan: -Video Games -Comic Books -TV Shows I just need some new ones or something.
I’m being that girl that I don’t want to be, making a point I don’t need to make. I have two jobs, people get that. It doesn’t make me special. It doesn’t make me stupid. It doesn’t make a failure. I don’t need to prove anything because of it. I don’t need to bring it up every five seconds. All I want is an understanding that I’m doing what...
fleshscars: how do i uninstall anxiety
Stupid stupid stupid.
I’m not sure why I get myself all bent out of shape over small things. I have an interview for a part time retail job today and I’m as nervous as when I got my full time job. Breathe. If you don’t get it, it’s not the end of the word, you’re still employed. This is so you can actually save a good chunk of money and move forward with your life. Stop. Psyching....
kristrappeniers: Sometimes you need to step outside, get some air, and remind yourself of who you are and who you want to be.
Why tonight… Why did it have to happen tonight? Things were fine and then I had to snap. I’m sorry. I didn’t want to. I’m a sore loser. If a game frustrates me, I stop playing. I couldn’t get the hang of it the first time, so I got frustrated. Can you blame me? You’re getting creamed and trying to learn how to play and don’t even know what you’re...
Knowing that heart attacks and strokes have the...
I’m not sure why but lately I’ve been having an usually high number of anxiety attacks. I noticed that they started on Friday after a particularly bad storm. Then continued the next night due to heat. Then last night for reasons I’m not sure of. And now sitting at work, trying not to look like I’m crazy for the way I’m breathing and trying to figure out why my hands...