Had some time and needed to write this down. Want to know more about me and get in my head? Then hit read more.
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about who I am. I wrote this list down to remind myself since sometimes it gets lost under a lot of feelings and crap. They’re in no particular order, just whatever popped into my head.
I have two first names. All my life I’ve gone by my second name, but more and more I go by my first name. Online, I go by my first name, it’s an easy way to confuse people who know me in person.
I have a bachelors degree in Graphic Design with a minor in Film. I’m looking to earn my masters in Web Development and go on to some awesome career in the Web Design/Development Field.
My hobbies include arts and crafts, watching wrestling, comic book collecting, bargain shopping, playing video games and baking.
I’m a virgo to the tea.
I like doing things with my hands. It can be tying knots, painting, baking, molding, sculpting, sewing, anything. I actually prefer painting with my hands than brushes, I can control the paint easier.
I have slight OCD. I’m incredibly detail oriented and can notice small things. I obsess over things in phases. Many of my obsessions are about money and cleaning. When I feel like things are off or I need to clean, I literally can’t stop thinking about it until I do it or something is done about it. I can make lists to shortly feel better but in the long run, I won’t feel better until it’s done.
I have food sensitivities to almost anything that comes in a box or bag. I’m not supposed to eat cane sugar, artificial sugar, corn, corn byproducts, soy, soy byproducts, dairy, and some other random fruits and vegetables. I’d like to get back to a diet where I don’t eat these things but I can’t get myself to do it. I also find myself having more a gluten intolerance as well.
I’m a very selfless person. I will 9 times out of 10, put someone else before myself.
I have anxiety and panic attacks. I have social anxiety.
I recently moved to a new state within the last 2 years and have made almost no friends. This is something I’m working on within myself as well as getting over the social anxiety, they go hand in hand. I’ve made more strides to beat it and understand myself within the last few months than I have in 3 years.
I have a hormone imbalance which has changed over the past few years since I was diagnosed in 2009. I’m currently unsure of whether it’s my hormones that cause my sudden mood swings or not.
I’m generally a very emotional person. I can cry at the tip of a hat. I cry a lot of the time as well at even the oddest things, like when people make it on MTV’s Made. I’ve accepted this part of me and don’t really care.
I like stupid reality shows whether they’re scripted or not. I like looking at other peoples business and I enjoy stupid drama. It allows me to forget my own life and enjoy someone else’s for a while. I used to watch soap operas in 5th grade. Port Charles was my favorite one and then it got cancelled. This is also part of the reason I like wrestling.
I few up with no cable until I was at least 12. I didn’t watch what other kids watched, I watched a lot of Barney and Sesame Street while others watched Rugrats and Kenan and Kel.
I’ve always been more mature than people my age since I was in kindergarten. I never understood doing what most kids do. I didn’t think I was above it, it just wasn’t for me. Maybe it’s not maturity but more reserved.
I’ve had a skin problem since I was 2. I had dermatitis on the back of my thighs. In 3rd grade I had it on the bottom of my feet to the point where all my feet did was crack and bleed. Once I hit puberty, it hit my elbows and face. Finally in high school I discovered the main cause for skin issues was what I was eating, hence the food sensitivities. If I eat too much my skin flairs. My feet will always appear calloused and gross to some, it doesn’t bother me though.
I had lyme disease and merca within the span of 1 year in 2006-2007.
I believe I’m not good enough, hate the idea that I’m not perfect, have terrible self esteem issues, and lack confidence. These are my biggest demons to overcome within myself other than social anxiety.
I’m a geeky nerd girl. I love sci-fi things. I love technology and can actually fix your computer or remove a virus. I don’t have as much knowledge as I’d like to have and I’m sure you can school me, but I don’t care. Call me a poser, but I’m still a proud nerd chick.
I have a weird obsession with mutations and almost became a geneticist(my father’s dream). For this reason, anything having to do with people gaining superpowers is interesting to me. X-Men will forever be my favorite comic of all time.
I’m currently in love with a big black guy. I never thought I would date an african american but I wasn’t going to knock it. I don’t even see it as black and white anymore, I just know love. Unfortunately, my mother doesn’t see the same and is completely against it. At some point, she will have the ultimatum of what to do. Him and I are currently not together to deal with our own personal issues but our love runs deep.
I have a terrible and corny sense of humor. I like terrible puns. I find most things funny or not funny. I try to find the good in most things. I’ve recently changed my attitude towards a more positive one because being negative doesn’t get you anywhere.